So. Hi. Reader prepare, because I shall be ranting.
Ok. So I should really be happy. Today is a great day. Today is the day I dropped Chemistry. Today is the day I spent with my friends. Today is just... a great day. So why may you ask I am not so jolly? Well it's quite obvious really (To me that is). I think I'm developing that rash that Megan and Alex of our school seemed to have maintained for the past couple of years. And no I don't mean a literal rash. This is a different metaphoric kind of rash. It could be considered contajious but really, you can prevent it from happening if you have some self-control. This rash has many symptoms. Some of them include, irrationality (No similiarities intended), ignorance, and the oh so blighted bitchiness. So, I have noticed these symptoms in myself. They have really become quite dominant now. The example of this bugging me quite simply is this event:
There's a girl who shall not be named. She is quite rude. She pretends to be friends with everybody. However, Sahar does not like this girl very much. Sahar believes this girl to be a poser. Therefore, sahar ignores girls stabs at materialistic friendships. Time goes on. Girl attempts to make friends with people who are also friends of Sahar. Girl then proceeds to talk behind Sahar's back. Sahar hears. Sahar then marches somehow irrationally and proceeds to have an odd fit with the girl. This "fit" may be considered bitchy. It goes as this:
Sahar: Yeah, by the way (Girl), I just wanted to let you know nicely, before I really lose it, that you should just really quit talking behind my back.
Girl: I'm not talking behind your back!
Sahar: please don't lie. (Sahar is furious at lie- *Note* Sahar has anger-management problems) You know what, just know, don't come hanging around me anymore.
Sahar walks away.
ha. ha. well now you must note that this happend in front of a number of people in the library. All of whom gave me quite the odd looks. I think I look like the school bitch. It makes me sad considering i'm not the type of person to get involved in such low degrading "fueds." So, yes. Watch out my fellow BRAS. I have become a menacing bitch. I must be dealt with.
Also. Today my dreams of becoming a Social Worker were bashed by four teachers. Why? They all said it was a job consisting of great stress. The guidance councellor even said: So... why do you want to go into Social Work? I said: ... why not? And she said: well.. I always wonder, when people choose
this types of career. Sahar: um. I'm just..... searching for options. *sinks into chair*
I dont know. Today should be a good day. It should be an amazing day. But I just feel useless and bitchy. I love you BRAS.
Maybe you're right Robin. Maybe I do take everything too seriously. After-all, you always say, it's the small things that count.
Mahalo.